It's the Little Things in Life...

I had a test today, and that sucked, but once I finished, I had an hour to kill before the lecture started and I got to hang out with Brandon, who I haven't really had the opportunity to talk to in a year, and that made me happy. He's a good guy and fun to be around, so it made me happy to have that moment, especially with all the stress of school going on right now. Plus, his future is way more up in the air than mine, so it reassures me that I'm not the exception, my current state of disarray is the rule for a college senior.

Another happy moment: at 3:45 this morning, I completed the first written page of my thesis (only 24 left!) and made a detailed outline of what the rest will hold and e-mailed it out to my two advisors involved in this process. It was a feeling of accomplishment, but what made me smile was getting the response back from Professor Teres who will be grading it. He said:

"This is a very good beginning! You write clearly and coherently, and this is a great asset!"


So that made me happy because it always helps when the grader thinks you're at least mildly intelligent. In general, today made me feel accomplished. I think I did pretty well on my test and I got the thesis started and I caught up with an old friend. There were more happy moments than frustrated ones. Oh, and DiceK threw a no-hitter in five innings in his spring training game. Today was a good day, hopefully the rest of the week will be just as good.

I Think I May Just Stay in Bed All Day From Now On...

I am hating everything right now: homework, life, people, school. I'm really sparing nothing and no one. It's just one of those moods.

I still have not heard from Boston University. They are starting to annoy me. Just tell me already! I keep sending up little "please God" messages everytime I think of BU, but I'm beginning to think maybe I'm better off. Maybe? I'm really talking Northeastern up in my head, but at the same time, it doesn't change the fact that BU is my top choice. I had a dream last night that I got a rejection letter. That was probably prompted from the fact that yesterday, when I checked the mail, I thought the big fat envelope in the mailbox was a BU acceptance letter. It wasn't. It was the financial aid package from Northeastern. Basically, with my scholarship and the federal loans, that has just short of tuition covered. Everything else, a.k.a. housing, books and basic living expenses are up to me. And by up to me, I mean that loan my mother has so generously offered to co-sign.

I've kind of started work on my thesis. I have done some reading and some research and took books out from the library. So, ya, I've kind of started. I use the term loosely. I gave myself a set of due dates. Intro and outline: March 30; Rough rough draft: April 16; and final draft: May 4. I think I can do it, but I've still only kind of started.

And you wonder why I hate life and everything that entails right now? Boo college. Boo school. I quit!

T- 2 Months Til Graduation

It is March 16. Spring Break is about over and it's crunch time. I have yet to actually start my thesis, but it's in the works. I feel overwhelmed, and yet, ready. Though, BU is trying to kill my nerves by not telling me if I am in or not yet. At this point, I just want to know!

Break was fun and exhausting. I got home from Syracuse on Thursday night and Friday I left for Maine and just got back today. I started in Old Town with Jen and had so much fun. I even went to the northernmost mall in Maine, maybe even New England! Crazy, right?? :) Friday was pretty chill and then Saturday we hung around, did the mall thing and then went to a club in Bangor. It was pretty dead because the UMaine people were all on break, but we went because it was a benefit for one of Jen's friend's neigbors who has cancer. We had a lot of fun, and it was for a good cause, so doubly good. Sunday I got up and drove West to Sunday River for some skiing.

This is Sunday River:

It was great skiing. I skied Monday and Tuesday and the weather was great for spring skiing. The temperatures were in the upper 40's and it was sunny the two days I skied. I hadn't skied in three years and hadn't been to Sunday River in nine years, so it was so much fun, though, my legs were burning by the end of Tuesday. That and all my homework were why I took the next two days off (plus it rained Wednesday and Thursday).

Oh, and during break, they announced the bracket for the NCAA tournament. For some reason, Syracuse was not on the list, even though there were multiple teams in the tournament with worse records and lower schedule difficulty. It was total bullshit and it made me really mad. But I'm over it, we're in the NIT and we already won a game and I'm pretty sure I'm going to the second round game on Monday. Screw the selection committee, they don't know what they're talking about.

So, now, I guess I should maybe do homework, or continue to watch 1 vs. 100 (which I love) and then maybe Identity, which I've seen once and it's not that bad. Hmmm... homework or mindless television...

So, now it's March...

It's scary to think that I'm just two months away from graduating. College has gone so fast. It's also the time where I'm scared to check my mail box. I have heard from all the law schools except for 2. I know that one is a rejection letter: Harvard. And the other... that's my future. That's the letter that tells me if I'm going to my first choice... or Northeastern. NEU is not a bad school by any means, it's just not Boston University. It scares me to even say how much I want to go to BU, because... what if I don't get in??

I didn't get into Boston College. That's why I'm scared. They're pretty much the same level of school, and although I know I had a much better application package for BU than I did BC, I'm still scared. I want to know, but I don't, because I don't know what I'll do if I don't get in. I'll be devastated. I got in everywhere else so far, however. WNEC even offered me a full scholarship, but there's no way I'm going there. I'm not spending the next 3 years of my life in Springfield, even if they paid me. I just applied there for the hell of it, and it's nice to be wanted, but there's no way I'm spending the next 3 years in the middle of freakin' nowhere Springfield, MA. Nope, no way.

This picture is of the girls at the John Mayer concert (Feb 27). It was amazing. Mat Kearney opened and he was sooo good and John Mayer was even better. I've decided he's a coke addict because I swear to god when I saw him 1 1/2 years ago, he was chubby and now he's a stick thin hobo. I don't really care, because at least he still sounds great, but that can't be a healthy lifestyle. I was deathly ill, and I'm just barely now recovering, but it was an amazing time with amazing people.

Now, I should really finish my paper and study for my midterm that I have tomorrow. The midterm doesn't worry me, I'm taking the class pass/fail, so I just have to pass it. The paper is another story. This woman is crazy nitpicky and her comments on drafts are so... blah. They don't tell you anything. She makes me think I suck, but in reality, she's asking for too much. On a draft, she only made comments on my first two paragraphs. Why say you'll take drafts if you don't make comments on the whole thing? You can't make no comments on 4 of the 5 pages and then rip apart those pages that you didn't bother to help me on when I had only a draft and could have improved it!! Nevermind... I've really stopped caring at this point. I just have to pass these classes, finish the thesis paper (a.k.a. start it), and F-ing graduate!